Today I had an amazing experience and one that I wish could have gone on and on!! Firstly I have to say thank you to Mark I know I was so very lucky to have had you in my life, it was no where near long enough but I got to have you and all your love and for that I am very grateful. Thank you for finding the strength needed for me today, I only hope you know how much I truly appreciate it all, and Laurie if you are reading this thank you from the bottom of my heart, you know how very close I've come to joining him. I cant say that feeling of wanting to be close to Mark again will ever leave me but now I know he needs me here, that he will help me, he wants the kids together, he needs them close. I love that you come to me in my dreams Mark I have never wanted to go to sleep as much as I do now, and I miss you too babe!
I feel like somethings (well most actually) are just happening around me with no real input or direction on my part. I am thankful for some of these things and I truly believe a few of these 'things' have saved me from succumbing to the desire to join my gorgeous boy. If only you'd known how much I needed you here Mark how much I would have done to make this all right. I know you still love me the way I love you and for now I just have to accept this is the way things will be, but I will live for the day when I can be back in your arms, kissing those gorgeous lips. You will live in my heart forever, you are my everything. I see so much of you in McKenna, and she can make me laugh like only you could, she is my link to you and yours to me and that can never be broken!!
A couple of weeks ago I was lucky enough to have Jacky from Artistic Journey offer to teach me in a one-on-one class some background techniques she had learned from the very talented Misty Mawn herself!!!!!!!!!! So very lucky and I got to touch a real Misty original!!! I love many types of art and many types of artists but mixed media is my 'drug of choice' and Misty Mawn my special brand. I look at so much art that does speak to me that draws me in but Misty mawns work I always come back to and EVERY piece seems to have something to say to me and I love that.
I have been so very lost with no direction in anything for a little while now and this was evident in my art as well.
, I just wanted a direction.
I picked up a pencil again not knowing if I could even draw anymore, I picked up a paint brush not knowing if I could even paint anymore and at first I thought hmmm this is not what I'd call art but it was helping me deal with all the trauma going on inside, it was my own brand of therapy so I keep at it. I read more blogs looked at more art and tried to see a direction I wanted to take, what art I wanted to create. I found more art sites and eventually I found Jacky and so here I am feeling like I might have found a direction and this is the result
Never take life for grated, always let the ones you love know how much you care.
Kirsty
~xx~
Hey Kirsty,
It was great to see you at Tomorrow's memories doing a class.
It was great to chat and a chance to give a hug.
I just can't stop thinking about your artwork that you so kindly shared with us yesterday. WOW girl is all I can say, amazing, beautiful and stunning. Would love one day to own a piece of art with your name on it, no pressure or anything but I just want you know how fab they are. Keep creating and keep moving on.
Again it was great to see you again, and to see a smile.
Love me :-)
Tracey
Posted by: Tracey Holdyk | 06/28/2009 at 07:24 PM
Kirsty! This is outstanding... just awesome! I love that you are finding passion in your art-work! Keep it up!! You are showing strength and courage through this outlet.
Posted by: Andrea Amu | 07/01/2009 at 01:37 AM
Hi Kirsty, love your work that you are doing. Keep it going. You also inspired me, sometimes we are just meant to meet certain people at a time when we need themmost.
xo Jacky
Posted by: jacky | 07/28/2009 at 11:20 AM